Gemma LOUISE Shallis

Sadness!

I'm not going to look at the death page
It's stressing and making me sad
It's a constant and hurtful reminder
Of how things can go horribly bad!

It's wrong what you did Gemma Shallis
It's wrong to have taken your life
It's wrong that you've hurt all your family
It hurts and it cuts like a knife!

I want all this hurt to stop now
Why won't it just get up and leave?
I can't stand the tears and the sadness
That comes to you after you grieve!

Now as I look out of my window
The sun it's high up in the sky
You won't be able to see it again
My question to you is still Why?

Gemma my poem has ended
Just like your life it is done
Goodbye to a beautiful daughter
With love from your grief stricken Mum!

Diane Shallis (Mum) May 10, 2009

x gem x

hiya babez cant believe its been a year n still cant believe it was 2 days b4 my b.day well im 17 now gem i was so luking 4ward too it when u wer still with us coz we promised that you would come down in your new car you would pick me up and we would spend the whole day shopping n then go clubbin at night and i cant believe we never got that opurtunity too catch up on the years i would give anythink too see you agen gem u realy were my rock when dad died and even before that i still got your e-mail you sent i read it sometimes just to remeber you. i just wish you were still here too tell me it will all be ok n not too worry. i try not too get mad at you and dad but its hard cuz you hurt so many people but by doing wat you did i miss you soo much just 1 last hug thats all i want love you xXxX

Abs (Cousin) May 5, 2009

ჱܓDANCING IN HEAVEN ჱܓ

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The angels are dancing
In the starlight tonight
Lighting the stars
With candles so bright.

Smiling as they dance
Through the heaven above
Caressing the star tip
With satin laced gloves.

The stars twinkle brightly
To let the angels know
No matter where they dance
The starlight will glow.

Waltzing in time to
The harps lovely tune
Winking to the smile
On the face of the moon.

Open your eyes
Stare at the heaven above
Imagine the angels
Dancing with love.

If you look even closer
I am sure you will see
Grandma and grandpa
Angels swaying so free.

Angels so radiant
They light up the sky
Dancing to the choir singing
The sweet by & by.

Angels sway softly
In robes spun out of gold
Spreading star dust
As they dance on their toes.

Slippers of silk on their
Little feet as they leap
Dancing on the star tips
Looking so sweet.

Next time you look
At the stars twinkling so bright,
Imagine the angels
Dancing in the moonlight.
............z Z
.........z Z z
(”)_(”)_.-””-.,
` _ _ `; -._, `)_
( o_, )` __) `-._)

Goodnight Godbless Gemma
Sweetdreams Angel
Love Tina (Callum Coulson`s Mammy) xXxXx

Tina Coulson May 3, 2009

One Year

Gems

Miss you so much babe

Wish you were still here

Love you so much

Uncle Gareth , Taylor ,Ryan and Luke
xxx

Gareth Shallis (Uncle) May 2, 2009

Nearly a year :(

Where has the time gone? It still seems like yesterday we seen and spoke to you. Nearly a year without you how we managed to get threw this year I dont know. I think about you everyday hun and so do many others. I always think about the last time I spoke to you and the last thing you said to me :( it hurts gem. To this day people still question why? Noone will ever know the answer. The only comfort we have is that your no longer hurting and in a better place flying free. Your memories will live on forever with many people. I hope you manage to catch your balloons on saturday that we will be releasing for your 1st year anniversary going to be a tough day gem. I know your be watching over us. Forever in my heart and thoughts angel goodnight hun xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jodie Pool (Close Friend) April 28, 2009

The things You made me do! :p

I did it again!!! lol pulled a flaming filling out eating a mouth full of millions, wasnt as funny without u cracking up this time though! hahaha that was a good day, I forgot about it till yesterday.

'Rhi, I dare you to tip the whole bag in your mouth :-)'
'no chance Gem, I'll chip a tooth'
'go on!!!'
*tips bag in mouth, chews hard (and nearly chokes)*

*CRACK*
'Rhi, what was that??'
*spits them out* (classy lol)
'I told you id chip a tooth!!!'
'hahahaha lets see...!!'

and it was at that point we noticed i hadnt just chipped a tooth... I had actually factually ripped a chunk of my filling out and THEN chipped my tooth when I bit down on it!

Id give anything to have that day back or the opportunity to make more memories with you :-)

Love you sweetie
xxxxxxxx

Rhiannon Davies (Best Friend) April 27, 2009

ჱܓ

I looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
ჱܓ

We will always feel the void inside
Because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
Lets us know you're near.
So until our journey nears its end
And we hear the angels sing,
We'll face each new day as it comes
And live off the love you bring.

ჱܓ

Carol Gerry X Spud April 26, 2009

hey you!

Ello treacle! :))

Just thinking of you so I thought id drop by and say good afternoon. The sun is shining and it looks gorgeous outside, bet its even better where you are. Im stuck in work :( not for much longer though, I got laid off yesterday, its my last day next wednesday.. its ok though, I dont mind too much. Im just thinking of it as an opportunity to go find something else that I love or that will make me happier than I am here :)

Not long now sweetheart, the date is drawing closer and making everyone lose their heads once more. Im wondering if it'll still be the same in 5 years time, if it will still be this daunting. I really dont get how ive managed a whole year without you in my life lol You kept me going so much when u were here didnt you. I was older than u yet u still gave me better advice than I could give myself lol I suppose its helped having every one stick together now you've gone, Ive met lots of your friends and family that i didnt get a chance to meet while u were here.It's lovely though, having so much support if I need it :) (more often than not :p)

Your mums been amazing. Took some flowers and a teddy bear up last week, wanted to make sure she kept smiling on her special day.hehe It was so lovely to finally meet her, and look at pictures of you. I held you and you felt so cold and so delicate, it wasnt a Gem & Rhi hug in the slightest..(ours were tight and warm lol) but it was soooo nice to be close to you again. And to be able to smell the smell of you again on your clothes. The only thing I've got left of you is some pics of us and that peach hoodie of mine that u used to wear. God I love that thing now!

Anyway, I better do some work, havent done anything since 8.30 hehehe SEE... Still making me skive even though u aint here! :p TUT!

Have a lovely afternoon sweetie
Love you loads
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Oh, made you more pix too. Angel ones :-) cause thats what you are now right? a beautiful angel :) miss you

Rhiannon Davies (Best Friend) April 23, 2009

Heaven's Angel

I made you some pretty pictures :-)
Love you
xxxxxxx

Rhiannon Davies (Best Friend) April 22, 2009

Why?

Why Gem? Why do people do it? I almost did Saturday night and I dont know why, I dont know where my mind was, I don't know why or how I could think those things. Everything seemed like it was crashing again ya know?! Like nothing would get better. I wasnt myself, I felt different, I felt dark. I took the tablets and drunk the wine, then Ray came home early. He was heart broken, hurt that he nearly had to go through it all again. But I dont know how to get out of that frame of mind. You've made it too easy, you've made me think its ok to find a way out if things are too much. I just miss you so much, why arent you here to talk to??? Why can't you help me? It's YOU that I need to get me through, nothing else works and noone else is you. You were the one who makes it all better Gem, you were the one who told me what to do... and it always worked!!! I need you back Gem, Im sorry if Im being selfish but we need you here more than they need you up there. They have too many of our friends there as it is. Please come home Gem, look after me... just for a bit.

xxxxx

Rhiannon Davies (Best Friend) April 20, 2009